Our Apartment

So, Jeff and I both agree that our new apartment is absolutely small. The kitchen is a galley and the bathroom is a closet. However, after going to look at it in a new light, with fresh eyes and in the day time, we agreed that it's just big enough for the both of us and our two lovely dogs. Let me tell you, there aren't many places in this area who will let you have two dogs. I was a little sad to hear that I couldn't paint right away, but I understand his reasons. He just painted and wants to make sure we are going to be long term tenants. I think I can handle a few months with white walls. I'll just cover it up with mirrors and pictures of us as a family.

This is the first time since Jeff and I got married that we can actually be a family. It'll be our place and I won't have to continue going through our marriage miserable because of his family's inability to actually talk to me. Well, to that I can say, oh well their loss. I am an awesome person. Tomorrow I'll post pictures of the apartment. For now, however, I am going to bed because I am absolutely exhausted.

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Lonely....

I wish I could convey how much I miss certain people when they aren't around anymore. It's almost as a part of me is missing; an emptiness that can't be filled by anything, but that person. I wish more than anything, that I could be with you right now; in your presence, talking with you, even if it's about nothing at all. So, when you're not with me, I am not whole inside; I am but half a girl, wanting nothing more than to be whole. I suppose everyone feels like that sometimes.
I want nothing more than to have friends around here. Just when I think I've made some, it turns out they didn't want to be friends past knowing each other at work. I really hope I'll be able to make more friends during school. I'm slowly getting to know a few people in my Psych and English. Maybe, something will come of that. Maybe I should just break down and beg Jeff to move back to N.Y. Maybe, I could even get my job back at Wal-Mart.