A Myth....

All I can really say is, does it wholeheartedly exist or have we made it up in our minds that it has?

- Post from my iPhone

The Purpose....

So, the purpose of Facebook and Myspace is to make friends and keep in contacting with all of those people you've lost over the years. You know the people, high school friends, old roommates, friends of your parents who you don't really talk to or like but want to add you anyways. So why is it when you get in touch with someone, they seem really excited to talk to you. Then you exchange email and phone numbers and vow to keep in touch that way, but when you take them up on that offer they always seem bothered by the fact that you want to talk. If they didn't want any of that, why do they say: "Hey, call me later?" or "Text me sometime." Because you know as soon as you do they start with the small talk then suddenly they are too busy. It's crap like that that really bugs the piss out of me.

Why tell someone you miss them if you didn't want them to continue talking to you? Really, what's the purpose and point of doing any of that. I have this friend who out of know where decided he wanted to talk to me. Mind you, I haven't talked to him in close to 8 years. Not since he kinda blew me off to talk to his girlfriend leaving me watching a movie with his mom sitting in the chair next to me.

So he messages me, and of course, I am absolutely thrilled to talk to him. It's always good to talk to people you haven't talked to in a really long time. And things are going well and he's like "I miss you, we should talk more. Maybe you could call or text me." So obviously I take that as an invitation to keep in contact with him. So, I do. Things start off pretty good, you know, catching up on old times, talking about things that are going on now. You know, the standard procedure for this sort of thing. Then a few days go by and he hasn't responded to a text yet, so I send one saying "Hey what's up." Then things go down hill. He starts ignoring me. After taking advice from a friend, I decided to ask him a vital question, does he have a girlfriend. Now, most of you might think, what's it matter you're married anyways. Well let me inform all of you. Guys DO NOT know how to be friends with a girl while having a girlfriend. IF any guy, who's not gay, says he can he's lying so he can sleep with you.

So I guess you can see where I'm going with this. It's like that night with the movie, that I mentioned early, all over again. He can't handle wanting to be with his girl and the fact that one of his friends is a girl. So he goes, "I'm super busy right now." He's not busy, he just doesn't really want to talk to you. It's like men go to a special school on how to be jerks to girls. If this is the case, then I'd like to disban that school right away. I don't want my son growing up thinking it's okay to be like this to girls.

My Lost Job.....

I lost my job today... It's not my proudest moment and it definitely sets back our plans quite a bit, but what am I to do about it? It went down like this: Company policy states if you are over/under more than 4 times in the span of a year, you are suspended and possibly terminated depending on what HR and LP have decided. Now, they tell you this in hopes that maybe if you screw up, that it's possible that your worth ethic my overshadow the tiny mistakes you might make. After all, we are humans, not robots.

Well, this is where I admit that I might have a visual problem. I think when I look at the monitor, sometimes the numbers get mixed up. And where as it says I shouldn't give them any money back my brain registers that as, "Cash Back." Obviously this is a problem that might only be rectified after many doctors visits. However, I think that on register 5 there is a glitch on that machine. 3 out of the 4 times, I had been on register 5. Maybe this is just a coincidence, I'm not sure.

So, everyone knows that register 5 is messed up. If you select 'No' for cash back, it register's as yes and vice versa. So, when a customer comes through, we go through this spiel that 'it's backwards and glitched, just press the opposite of what you want to do.' Well, I tell one customer this and it happens to be after he's put in his pin number as cash back. He is impatient, hasn't taken the time to read the prompts, and therefore causes more confusion than is necessary. The drawer opens and I look at the screen to make sure I don't him any cash back, however [this is where my tricky mind comes in], I'm pretty sure it says give '8.65' back. He says he doesn't want it, but I inform him that if I don't then my register will be over and I'll be written up for it. He takes it and goes on his merry way. He obviously doesn't see a problem with the fact that I might have just given him '8.65' and I wasn't supposed to. It doesn't occur to me till later that the slip that pops out for cash back hasn't. And by later, I mean much later after I've spent a good hour crying and apologizing to my husband for screwing both of us over.

At the end of the night, I end up being short. How much? Well you guessed it, 8.65. That's right, this is now my fourth time and I'm suspended until further notice. My manager tells me to call on Friday to see what the verdict is. I go in Thursday, after I've thought about what happened, and explain to her my ideas and thoughts on the situation. I plead with her, that if I can keep my job, I'll do anything and everything, as long as I can keep my job. But my attempts were fruitless. As of 4 p.m., September 19, 2009, I was officially fired.

Now, what I really don't understand is why the hell do they keep people that call in all the time, show up late, or do no-call/no-shows, and not someone who's made a mistake. I mean it's obvious that these people don't want to be there. Yes, I made a mistake which may or may not have been my fault. If it is, I take complete responsibility, but I've never been late. I've only called in twice: once for being covered in poison ivy; once for have the flu. I'm back on time, if not early, from all of my breaks. I've stayed late to help when we were short. I've covered other shifts when people have been fired/suspended/quit. Why doesn't that hold water over my counting issues. Isn't it more important to have an employee with an outstanding work ethic, as opposed to one who obviously doesn't want to be there. There a plethora of other jobs in the building that do not require me to handle cash.

So, the hunt begins for a better job. Maybe one that will look past all of my firings, counting issues, medical problems, and see that I am a great employee. I can't help the fact that I mess up sometimes. I'm not infallible. I'm not a robot; things will happen.

A While.....

It's been awhile, but I haven't had much of in the way of updates until recently. My cute as a button has evolved so much over the last few weeks. First, let's start with his weight. He is now 5 lbs 1.6 ounces!! He's also now ok the low flow cannula and doing wonderfully! So good, they even took him off of his caffeine! Which means, he's that much closer to coming home! I'm so proud of the little monkey.

Also, I've officially started college. Thursday was my very first class, and let me say, I wasn't even nervous. My Psych professor is pretty awesome. She went slow enough to take notes and I'd was veryveasy to follow her train of thought. I am, however, afraid that I'll faill because I find the reading rather dull. But, I'll try to make it.

More later, I'm falling asleep typing this.